| Ok... so I was on a friend's xanga... (Miss Holly Reed) lol.... and the song that she had playing in the background was friggin amazing. And the song she had posted on there was probably the best song I have ever heard ( I love that song)lol. It made me think of what all happens over the summer... things change... people change... friends change... Just like that everything can be the complete opposite as to what they were before. My summer... Work, Work, Sleep, Food, Work, Sleep, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, Food, Food, Food, Friends. Especially during your senior year... wow...it's amazing to see how different things are after graduation or even just school being out. You don't see everybody everyday anymore so you don't talk to them as often... instead you sleep til 9, 10, 11, or whenever, getting up, eating, and sitting there watching tv or working. You will promise each of your best friends that you will always be best friends and you'll talk and do this or do that... but in reality... it all fades... sounds so emo I know... but it is only true... unless you go to the same college. But still... it gets really tough... I had no idea that the toughest part about college was letting myself actually experiance it and (I hate to say move on but thats almost what I mean). It's so weird. You will feel distant from your best of best friends at times and when they call you or you call them the once a week you get the chance it will be reallly akward because you are experiancing two totally different things and going two different directions... they don't know the people you know now... they don't have the same classes or same professors or activities or food or dorm. They only have you and you only have them but you both have everything else to take care of. It's wierd and akward until you hit the point when it all feels as if you both are almost letting go and not really wanting to accept it. They will send your new friends a message telling them that they are glad that you are in good hands and it will break your heart cause right then it will hit you and you will know that things are not the same anymore... youre in college and this isn't some high school debacle that you two can just get over. And it hurts... it really does even if it doesn't seem like it... but it's college... one of the most important and exciting times of your soon to be adult life. And it hurts... but it's college. I never realized how much things would change. |
